Ponder..

What would you do if you meet someone you like? Not in the sense like strangers, but probably someone you know in your office, among frens or any other activities. I think alot of people will hesitate to make the 1st move, especially gals. I dunno what I will do now, maybe just wait and see or will just try to get to know this person (basic introduction etc.) 1st. Then I will hint to this person I like him, if not just tell him straight. I dun hv that much patience to wait and wait, might as well get it over and done with. If he likes me too, good. If not, get over it and find the next target!! Hahaha..

I supposed everyone has their fair share of crushes since school time. Not that we spend our school days eyeing other guys la, but they are part of the movitation, if not anything else, for us to look forward to school everyday. I used to like a guy in primary school but he seems to dislike me as I often seen him giving me unfriendly and aloof look. I had admired several guys in my class during secondary schools which I did talk to them but we were not those close kind. I was very shy then thus obviously nothing happened then. I became bolder in Pre-U times but too bad there were too few guys around (ratio is 1 guy to 4 gals). When I finally started working and got more involved in IRC gatherings, I got to know more frens and among them, I remembered I had 2 admirers who confessed to me but I see them only as frens or brothers and did not have special feelings thus let them down. I liked and confessed to one guy, he sort of rejected me and I realised he actually had a gf then and broke off few times before he eventually got married to her (weird hor), so I gave him up. Then I liked another guy but ended up he became my fren's bf (they were drunk and left lovebites on each other's neck and somehow they became a couple). Anyway, relationship was not on my priority then as I was enjoying every bit of singlehood and the fun. Since then, I seldom have crushes anymore, maybe coz I am much older now (think more maturely) and gotten tired of fruitless infactuations. I think money is more important!

I used to think that I will only get involved (attached) with a guy when I truly understand him and we share similar thinkings and interests. I was quite strict in a sense so I did not take any guy who comes along. Later on, I changed my thinking that I should try out and see if whoever comes along is suitable for me. Both ways dun quite work so I sort of give up after 2 heartbreaking relationships. I am glad I finally found someone now and sure hope we will live happily ever after...