Be a better person..

Sometimes I really dunno what is wrong with young people. They seem unable to control their tempers and emotions. For a simple thing, they will just get pissed off for nothing as if they are a big deal. They often fail to think if they are in the wrong or be sensible enough to analyse the situation before they blew up their tops. Some are probably too spoilt, usually when they are the youngest in the family. In general, youngest kids in the family are always the ones getting all the goodies and everyone seems to have to put up with them.

In the family being the eldest, I get alot more shit than my younger siblings. Not that my parents dun love me as much, but they usually shield the younger ones more. Before my sis was born, I had to fight with my brother constantly for whatever stuff and ended up both were punished, even though he is always the one in the wrong. Why on earth should I suffer also? Coz I am the eldest! Being the eldest means if you fight with your younger siblings, its your DAMN FAULT! Being the eldest means I have to set a good example, which ended up younger ones behaved much worse and are surprisingly forgiven unconditionally.

When my sis grew up, I started fighting with her. Not that I truly enjoyed it but she just got this temper which sometimes I cannot tolerate. Usually when we argue or suddenly something pisses her off (which alot of simple things just pissed her off for nothing, just dun understand why), you should see the way she behaved. She will start shooting all the bad words and whatever hurting words that you cun imagine coming out from her mouth. If you cannot behave in a civilised way, how do you expect people to respect you and treat you back nicely? In such cases, I ended up keeping quiet and shut myself in my room so as to avoid a huge argument (coz if I scold her back, more hurting and bad words will flow out from her mouth and gets both parties unhappy, what's the point?). If I ended up quarrelling with her, it will be my DAMN FAULT again anyway coz I am the eldest...how great.

What can I say? I just hope young people can learn to be more tolerative and understanding as they are not the only ones in the universe, being self-centered and only think of nothing but their own. At least my brother grew up to be a better and more matured person than kicking a big fuss over small issues (hope he does but he's not living with us anymore so I dun hv to put up with his nonsense again even if he does not change). Maybe its the differences in the growing up process, people think and behave differently.

Although I am not a saint myself, at least I tried to tolerate and tolerate and tolerate. I am not expecting everyone to be saints, but at least have the heart to be compassionate to yourself, your family and your friends. We are not here to put up with all your nonsense. We put up becoz we love each other and not born to come and fight with each other. Everywhere everyone is fighting, for whatever reasons which no one will ever understand. Fighting for status, fighting for land, fighting for money, fighting for women, fighting to live, fighting for food etc.....it never ends... Why cun everyone loves each other and make this world a better and harmonious place to live in?