Friends and more

I got some inspiration to write something earlier, when I was multitasking to create a new notes id and got some problem. After some suggested steps from my colleague, my notes hanged as well as my whole pc. My music stuck at a certain part and the whole screen froze. What a morning. Had to restart my pc and after that, I forgot what I want to blog about.

Anyway, let's see what I can think of now. Spent the whole evening watching TV (usual routine on a Monday) yesterday. After that, started reading kennysia's blog from start. Just beginning to notice he's really a funny guy and its interesting reading his blog. He started barely 2 years ago and has indeed made a name for himself with his humourous writing (which of coz din start like this initially). Was feeling tired so stopped and shall continue when free.

I hope I can write a blog like his but I guess its not easy. My life is so boring...nothing facinating to write about. Reading back some of my entries, realised that its a little like writing an open diary where people wun be interested as its all pretty mundane stuff. Haven't been active outdoors so nothing to blog about too. Been stuck in Singapore for the past erm...8 months without a holiday kinda bored me. Obviously there is no adventure to blog about as well. Do yearn for a holiday soon but am keeping back coz I might change or leave my job. Gotta save up abit, especially signing up for the facial package at MTM (which is a huge nuclear bomb - as my sis described). Although I signed up by installments, I still have to prepare at least $100++ per month to pay my bills, for a while 24 months!!

Ok where did I side track to already...back to what I should be writing. Oh ya, wanna blog about friends. Friends....everyone should at least have one to mention, whether close or what. Through my life, I have met many friends, but yet to find a true blossom friend. Maybe I have too high expectations of friends.

Let's start with a pal I known since Pre-U days. She is now happily married with a kid and we only kept in contact occasionally. We were started being closer after we left school, among some other friends in our group. We used to go KTV almost every week, sometimes even more than 1-2 times. We would take leave to go shopping. especially during the Great Singapore Sales. Went with her on a couple of trips, although she's not a perfect companion for travel. Eventually when she got a bf, we sort of lost touch and grew apart. Along the way, I have made new friends so I din really feel the lost. But at times when I recall, I feel sad coz she is not really a true friend. She might be someone I hang around with, have fun with but she never listens to me. When she is troubled, I am always there for her. But when its my turn, she never bothers. Perhaps I don't have that much troubles to begin with, for I am more or less an optimistic person. But having a friend that cannot share your thoughts, its like having none at all. I thank her for the fun and companionship the years we spent together, and wish her all the best.

Then there was another friend from Pre-U. My character is somewhat different from her but we got along fine. We were not as close but we do chat on the phone sometimes, and even met for lunch as her workplace was nearby me last time. Since her office moved, we seldom keep in touch. Every Chinese New Year, she will invite me and some friends to her house. I went without fail every year since 1993, the year we left school. Finally this year, I did not go to her house. Why?? Coz every year the friends that went to her house got lesser and lesser, until for the past 2 years, I have to bring along my sis to keep me company. This year, I decided not to go anymore since the others dun make an effort, I see no point in me going. When I message her, she did not reply. Since then, never hear from her. You see, if you dun make a point, no one else bothers.

I started going into IRC, out of coincidence when I was working in 1997. We got a dial up to internet then (bravo!! at that time...) and there was this singnet chatroom where I started to enter the cyber world of IRC (Internet Relay Chat). As the years passed, I got to know alot of internet pals, and some still in touch now. We had outings every week, organised by me and sure had a lot of fun. Eventually, i got tired of being the one to organise (really tired) so I decided to call it quits in 2000. I sort of retired, and even gave up the channel I had once been very active in and owned. I think I have to move on... I do miss those days but I cun be the one to plan and organise everytime so I gave it all up. Occasionally a few irc friends would suggest meet ups, and someone will plan. So far we met like once or twice a year only!! Its not easy to organise, I wonder if those people do understand and appreciate me for those days.

Angeline and Xris are two of those IRC friends (which I got to know through other IRC friends) which I actively still keep in touch with. Although we may not be very close, I do appreciate them as friends and I guess we still need some at every point of our lives. Angeline is very obsessed with keeping fit and shopping (which unfortunately abit different style from me so we dun really go shopping together). Xris is also obsessed with shopping, which probably is the common interest among women. Her kind of obsession is...well...cun be explained through words. She will just shop and shop like nobody's business and must buy something everytime she is out. I am tired (very, very tired) of constantly nagging at her shopping habits coz its not doing her any good and she dun listens anyway. She knows she got alot of other things (like debts etc) to worry about but she still never stops shopping. Unless she prints $$$ then I have nothing more to say. Somewhat I am utterly very disappointed with her.

I was quite close to an IRC friend years back too. We went shopping, gym and singing together. But problem with her is that she practically follows everything from me. She buys the same stuff as me or sings the same songs as me in KTV. I got rather fed up coz its like seeing a twin beside me. I dun mind people having same stuff as me, but not to that extreme!! There was a period of time when she was quite broke and still continue buying useless things. Her debts to me and some friends grew but instead of finding ways to pay us back, she bought more things. I eventually kept my distance from her and sort of hinted to her I cannot continue hanging around with her. Other friends also realised her "chow kuan -bad pattern" and starting shunning her too. Sometimes I feel sad for her, coz she is not a bad friend, just that she takes me for granted and I just dun like her "chow kuan". Its a pity we cannot be friends but we still chat online sometimes. She is getting ROM soon, and I am happy for her that she finally found someone who likes her as she is. I believed she has changed for the better and wish her all the best.

Friends, we cannot live without them, but also cun live with some of them.... I am glad some people found true friends. Treasure, appreciate and listen to them.