About Xris

Hopeless...
Kinda feel bad yesterday after telling Xris off for the intention to spend money again. Why is it that she never learns and relent? She is planning to go KL again to attend his kor's wedding. Seriously in my opinion, if I am already damn broke and in big debts, I will not even consider going anywhere even though its just staying at hotel and not going shopping anywhere. You still have to spend like 200-300 just to travel there and get accommodations. To me, I do not enjoy the privilege of spending money like that if I am in this kind of situation. Its true we do need to pamper ourselves but pls for heaven's sake, judge your own limits. What's the use of pampering yourself on top of an already big debt and building it up further and the whole amount will NEVER EVER get repaid. Her good friend is not doing her much help also coz everytime they meet, they spend money. Self control is very important but I guess some people just cun do it.

Broke before....
I have been very damn broke b4 when I was temping years back (in 1994/5) and had to find cents to survive and I restricted myself to spending at that time, totally deprived of all the luxuries I could indulge in. I do not save up much I admit but at least I do not find myself in debts to an uncontrollable amount. I always try to clear whatever credit card debts I have within the due date, not coz I am rich but I keep track of my spendings.

Thoughts and such...
I really hate myself for nagging at her and being so kpo whereby she just does not listen and kept telling me 101 excuses why she is spending more money. So much so for that, I hope I will try to keep out of her affairs in future, perhaps encourage her to spend as she like coz her problem is not mine anyway. I pity her for burdening herself with all the expenses from her family but she has to make it clear to them that she is not rich but she thinks she can handle. Ya true and her whole family treats her like a money tree. I am not expecting her to be infilial but at least let it be known that you are not earning big bucks and you do have your own financial difficulties. Maybe she owed her family too much in her past life and this is what she is going to pay this life. Maybe some people really need to go through a very rough and hard patch before they realise and buck up.

Give up!
I do not know why I always get so agitated whenI hear her spending money or going to do so. I wanted to help her but she is not helping herself. I do not like the feeling of people telling me one day when they are "完蛋" and said "Why didn't you tell or warn me?". 朋友立场, 我已仁至义尽. 但毕竟忠言腻耳. 对她是彻底失望, 也感觉到无可奈何. 她的堕落已不可救药. I therefore declare that I give up on her 100%. Shall not be a pest to her anymore by giving her more naggings and scoldings.